lucky one

Funny how accustomed you become to individuals around you.

This time of year makes you look around at who you are, and who you surround yourself with. You're forced to be introspective and feel guilt or pride in what you're doing...or the motivations guiding you.

My motivations are not always pure, and I think of my own benefit way more than I even consider others. I also find myself quickly irritated by those around me, mainly because I expect their perceptions to change in the direction mine has.

And yet I dont feel much guilt over it-- aside from the guilt I'm made to feel.

I like Christmastime-- but it doesn't seem like there is much spirit in the air...is this just due to my getting older, or realisticly seeing things?

I still wish Santa were real and magic did occur..