It really hurts than my friends don't...well, love me.

I sound selfish, I know. But let me say this. I have friends, and then I have friends. This latter category, they're family. I would do anything for them. I put my life on hold for them if need be because I love them. They're the only people I've let see the real me. I trust them so completely....and that's saying something, because I have MAJOR trust issues.

So it really does hurt that they just don't seem to care anymore. Its always me making the sacrifices. Its always me spending copious amounts of money to go see them, its always me initiating the conversations. If I didn't, we'd go months without talking. They don't reach for me. Its as if they've already moved on in their lives and reached a point where they don't need me, and It. Fucking. Hurts. For someone who's always trying to please everyone else, who's always making the sacrifices, is it too much to ask for someone else to, just once, show me the same consideration?

I just want to put that out there. I love them, but I wish they'd stop and see how much they're hurting me. I feel like I'm the only one who cares anymore.